One of my very best girlfriends who I'll call Christ since that's who she really is anyway sent me a couple of emails that I found to be not only helpful but truly profound. One line just jumped right out at me. I'll let you guess which one. She gave me permission to share them here:
I had a bout of true hysteria yesterday and gave up on ACIM. Went ballistic on like 18 strangers. I kept calling for Holy Spirit but couldn't find Him. Then I had a dream about being above it all and I could see how silly and insane it is and how this is hell. Then I got up this morning and read my next lesson, but not the text of it... just the lesson. "God is the Love I forgive in." We'll see... Love you, Christ
Well I'm in the hospital. I didn't really give up on ACIM... Just got pissed off at a lot of people over all this health shit, threw a hissy fit and finally got what I wanted which was to stop being put off... Sometimes I think...maybe it's better to send an ego to do an ego's job. Such craziness...And although I felt better forgiving it all... I had to be a bitch to get anything to happen.
Only here 23 hours I think...but maybe longer if they do surgery. I don't care what they do...just do something! I was so sick of having waves of numbness wash over me while I just waited for an appointment days away...everytime I went numb, I would think "am I ready?" And I'd think, "no not yet"... and then I turned into super bitch, drama queen, hissy fitter supreme!
Since then I've been able to be in heaven, watching my dream, and seeing others in their dream...It really is a much nicer place to be... Love you, Christ
Okay, did you guess which line jumped right off the page? It was this one, "Maybe it's better to send an ego to do an ego's job." Wowie, wow, wow! God knows (not really) I could have used that little piece of wisdom about 10 million times since starting this process. Sometimes you just gotta do what ya gotta do!
She's always been the smartest cookie in the bag! I love her dearly now and from the first moment she spoke to me!
I'm thinking of her the way she really is which is not a body but Christ, pure and innocent, all is forgiven and released. Amen.