Monday, August 30, 2010

Sugar and Spice...

And every thing nice, NOT! Yeah, we all know that facing what is in the unconscious mind is not always a walk in the park. Although, sometimes it is, and there you have the one time to be thankful for duality. I'm just kidding ya!

The good news is that we don't have to face the unconscious alone. In fact, we are never alone. According to J, the Holy Spirit responds fully to our slightest invitation. Experience tells me this is totally accurate.

One of my egos favorite games is to be victimized by the Holy Spirit Himself! I love to do the where were you when I needed you routine, and I love to ask Him questions in this new modern day code like WTF?

Without fail, I find out that He was doing His job all along, and I was refusing to see and accept it. This always leads me to some sort of heartfelt apology. Taking responsibility for...well...everything isn't always easy, but it's like just one split second and then the realization dawns that He was in charge the whole time!

Like Arten and Pursah say, Put the one in charge who knows everything! Amen to that.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Ten Buckets of Vomit Part Two

I don't even feel like ten buckets of vomit anymore! And the best part is knowing that I felt like ten buckets of vomit because I wanted to feel like ten buckets of vomit.

It's totally wild to realize I am doing this to myself. And that is very good news! Now, I can choose again and again and again! Feeling like heck is actually good motivation to get back to the business of forgiveness!

The system works, let me tell you. I give the Holy Spirit ten buckets of metaphorical vomit and He gives me a miracle! He's pretty gosh darn consistent, too I've found, because no matter what I give Him as long as I include some willingness, He exchanges it for a miracle.

This is definitely the best deal I've ever even heard of! Yeah, I'm going to keep this up no matter what. Forgiveness is my one responsibility and it's simple and at least just for today, it's really easy!

Oh, and tomorrow, I'm going to write a brand new post with a much less sickening title. I promise, probably!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Ten Buckets of Vomit

I know that is a disgusting title and I apologize if anyone reading this just ate or drank or has the flu, but that's how I ten buckets of vomit.

I don't know what happened. I was feeling so peaceful thinking boy this forgiveness really works. I even had visions of sugar plums dancing through my mind, and then shlazam, it's like I tripped and fell all the way to hell.

Where's the easy button?

I have lots and lots of things that I am trying to blame for this sudden decent into the depths of darkness, yet the secret of salvation is but this that I am doing this unto myself.


Well then...straight from the Course's mouth (paraphrasing):

I must have decided wrongly because I am not at peace.
Since I made the decision I can decide otherwise.
I do not feel guilty because the Holy Spirit will undo all the consequences of my wrong decision if I will let Him.
I choose to let Him by allowing Him to decide for God for me.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Movie Review Part Two

Well, my mother came over and spent the night recently, so I got out the A Course in Miracles The Movie and watched it again with her. Now, I feel compelled to say that I liked it even better the second time!

I think maybe I was expecting a hundred million dollar block buster, and so my initial opinion was not as enthusiastic as it could have been.

I do believe the content of the message was right on. They didn't say, "There is no world yeah but maybe..." They said, "There is no world!" As we all know that is the central thought the Course attempts to teach.

The movie is a wonderful reminder of what the Course is all about. I had a distinct sense of joining with all who participated even Puppetji who really lightened things up.

I also became familiar with students of the Course whom I had never heard of before like Early Purdy who laughed his head off and Lyn Corona who obviously gets it!

I plan to look up this Tom Carpenter and Linda Carpenter. They seemed very wise indeed. When I think about the 6 billion brothers appearing on this planet, it is nary a handful who know that A Course in Miracles even exists let alone who actually study and practice it.

To me, this makes each of them very interesting indeed!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Movie Review

I got my A Course in Miracles The Movie about 10 days after I ordered it. I've been scared to review it here because I have to say that I didn't agree with all of it. Right off the bat, they said that Ken Wapnick was the editor of ACIM. Well, after 18 and 1/2 times of reading Your Immortal Reality, I'm quite clear that Ken Wapnick was NEVER an editor of the Course. In fact, here's that section from page 145:

PURSAH: First, before I begin correcting the misinformation, let's get one thing straight: From the very beginning of the scribing of A Course in Miracles in 1965, all the way through to the publication of the Course in 1976, there was only one editor of the Course, and that was Helen Schucman. Bill Thetford was never an editor of the Course. Ken Wapnick was never an editor of the Course.

MAD COURSE STUDENT: In that same section, Pursah certainly does discuss Ken's work assisting Helen, and also thanks to Arten and Pursah, we know that Jesus identified Ken as the one who would be responsible for teaching people what the Course means. They also said he would come to be known as the Course's greatest teacher and that people would still be reading his stuff way, way on down the line!

It's no wonder that my favorite part of the movie involved Ken. At the very end, they put a couple of out takes in of him that really cracked me up. At one point he was saying something like, "Can I go now? Can I go now?" and then he said, "Can I have a brownie?" He's a doll! I hope to get to learn from him in person at some point along this illusory time line.

Overall, I give the movie two thumbs up because there were so many brothers and sisters sharing their thoughts on the Course. I could see with my very own eyeballs just how much it means to people. I feel profoundly grateful to be learning and studying it, too!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

It's August 11th...

It's August 11, 2010, and I only have one blog this month so far. Well, if I click on "publish post" at some point while typing this, that'll be two blogs. My deal with myself was to write a little something every single day. What the heck is wrong with me?

Sometimes, okay most of the time, I can't think of a darn thing to say. Or if I do think of something to say I forget it by the time I get near the keyboard.

One possibly interesting thing is that 4 years ago today I read Your Immortal Reality by Gary Renard for the very first time! I read it cover to cover all in one sitting. I had pre-ordered it from, and then it kept not showing up, so I got in the car and drove to Barnes and Noble and bought it.

When I first got my hands on it, I was a little disappointed because it was obviously thinner than The Disappearance of the Universe. I wanted another big, fat book, darn it! Hey, a forgiveness opportunity, before I even opened it, how cool!

So, I tried to read it while driving down the highway, but that wasn't going to work out so well, so I waited until I actually pulled in the driveway.

I didn't stay disappointed for long. Yeah, it was a little shorter, but it was just as sweet. Gary and his Teachers know what the heck is going on around here and exactly what to do about it.

I need all the reminders I can get, so I'm now in the middle of it again, actually for the 19th time! Holy Spirit!

People hear that, and they think I must be crazy. And they're right, but not for long. Thank God!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Level Confusion...Gone!

One of my very best girlfriends who I'll call Christ since that's who she really is anyway sent me a couple of emails that I found to be not only helpful but truly profound. One line just jumped right out at me. I'll let you guess which one. She gave me permission to share them here:

I had a bout of true hysteria yesterday and gave up on ACIM. Went ballistic on like 18 strangers. I kept calling for Holy Spirit but couldn't find Him. Then I had a dream about being above it all and I could see how silly and insane it is and how this is hell. Then I got up this morning and read my next lesson, but not the text of it... just the lesson. "God is the Love I forgive in." We'll see... Love you, Christ

and then:

Well I'm in the hospital. I didn't really give up on ACIM... Just got pissed off at a lot of people over all this health shit, threw a hissy fit and finally got what I wanted which was to stop being put off... Sometimes I think...maybe it's better to send an ego to do an ego's job. Such craziness...And although I felt better forgiving it all... I had to be a bitch to get anything to happen.

Only here 23 hours I think...but maybe longer if they do surgery. I don't care what they do...just do something! I was so sick of having waves of numbness wash over me while I just waited for an appointment days away...everytime I went numb, I would think "am I ready?" And I'd think, "no not yet"... and then I turned into super bitch, drama queen, hissy fitter supreme!

Since then I've been able to be in heaven, watching my dream, and seeing others in their dream...It really is a much nicer place to be... Love you, Christ

Okay, did you guess which line jumped right off the page? It was this one, "Maybe it's better to send an ego to do an ego's job." Wowie, wow, wow! God knows (not really) I could have used that little piece of wisdom about 10 million times since starting this process. Sometimes you just gotta do what ya gotta do!

She's always been the smartest cookie in the bag! I love her dearly now and from the first moment she spoke to me!

I'm thinking of her the way she really is which is not a body but Christ, pure and innocent, all is forgiven and released. Amen.