Complaining...

I've just always wanted to complain about the Course wrecking up some of my favorite words like the word "special" for instance. Now, that's always been a good word in my book. Just visit the card aisle and you'll see the word "special" all over the place. To a special boy, On this special day, For my special someone, This special time, This special place, all meaning extra good, right?

Well, then Jesus comes along and uses the word "special" to mean the word "separate!" Yikes, if I remember right, that was the whole problem in the first place! And that's the very thing I'm trying to realize that I'm not! And so, now I'm coming to terms with how often I do seek to be special which is really just separation in disguise! Man, see what I mean...all wrecked up!

Also, He wrecked up the word "magic" too because I loved the idea of magic being a twinkling of the nose, a wave of the wand and waalaa whatever you want. And then, here comes this new definition which basically amounts to apparently anything that we've made as a substitute for God like air, food, and water. What the heckity, heck? Sometimes, I think He's freakin' crazy, but I know it's really me, hence the name!

Weird, Freaky, and True!

I think A Course in Miracles is weird, freaky, and true! It seems like after a while you just know it's true. The contrast between the Holy Spirit's thinking and the ego's thinking becomes clearer and clearer and then foggy and then clearer and then foggy...anyway, I believe that somewhere on down the line it clears all the way up, once and for all!

In the meantime, it does really start to get fun because you just know that something is happening. It can be as subtle as a sense that everything really is going to be alright or as dramatic as realizing you've switched dimensions of time. By the way, that is actually happening as you practice true forgiveness. There are lessons that you no longer need to learn, and so, it's like the Holy Spirit is erasing those parts of the tapes!

There are many welcomed experiences along the way, but they emerge within a difficult process. Becoming aware that you are the one ego appearing as many definitely isn't pretty. That's why you have to trust the Holy Spirit who is going to show you that the ego is not you.

That sounds a bit contradictory to say that you are the one ego appearing as many while saying you are not the ego, but the ego is what you have come to believe is true about yourself. Looking at what you believe is true is a necessary part of the process. Jesus says paraphrasing, illusions are protected by not looking at them and together we have the lamp that will dispel them. Thank God!

There's Only One Student...

and one Teacher of A Course in Miracles. Isn't that fascinating? Each one must take responsibility for the entire dream. No matter who picks up that blue book, that's who Jesus is talking to. He isn't talking to someone else. There is no one else. Now, here's something else that's even more wild. He is talking only to you but not you the body. He's talking to you the mind, the one mind that incorrectly thinks it's here to be exact.

Also, they say the Course is holographic in nature meaning the whole is found in each of its parts. Hey, now that's freaky cool business right there. I'm glad to be involved in this and to have a shot at getting the hell outta here by practicing true forgiveness and realizing I never left Heaven in the first place.

You Spot It, You Got It!

I don't know who first coined that phrase. I believe I first heard it while reading at either the DU discussion group or Course Talk.

But, man oh man, if you're a Course student, there's no getting away from it. I don't see any way to actually correct someone else. First of all, according to Jesus, there is no one else. So, the minute I walk up to someone, or call them up, or whip out my keyboard to straighten out one of my brothers or sisters, what am I really doing but making the separation real in my own mind.

Now, if someone is standing on my toe, I'll speak up. There's no need to be weird!

But if someone thinks I'm a poor student who doesn't forgive right or whatever, what does that really say about me? In truth, it says nothing about me. What it really says is that the person making the judgments secretly believes they are guilty otherwise they wouldn't need to make the judgments. And if one of my brothers is surrounded by imaginary guilt, the last thing I want to do is reinforce it.

So knowing that much makes it so much easier to just stop and join with Jesus in my mind and forgive "both" of us for what we haven't really done. And if I can keep that up, I will become whole again! Thank God!

Radical Stuff...

A Course in Miracles is radical stuff, like the idea that I don't know who I am or what would make me happy. Don't most of us think that we know who we are and what would make us happy? But, do we, really?

Heck, if I know. The Course promises there is one in me that does know. That's the one I want to put in charge, the one that knows everything. I mean, duh, right?

That way I can relax a bit and just enjoy the show!

Oh, This Crazy Dream...

On Monday, I have a job interview at Social Services. On Tuesday, I have a food stamp interview at Social Services. Oh, the irony...

I never thought I would have a food stamp interview, but that's the thing you want to have when you don't have any food. Alright, I'm exaggerating because I did just eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

How fun it will be to stand in line at the grocery store and wonder if the guy behind me thinks I'm a drain on society?

I guess it's good that I've been so firmly taught that the important thing is not what the guy behind me thinks of me, but what I think of him. Yeah, I'm going to be pretty darn careful about that!

And maybe I'll get the job on Monday. It's really interesting to consider that if it's mine, I can't lose it and if it's not, I can't have it.

According to Arten and Pursah, two of my favorite Teachers in The Disappearance of the Universe, I can relax knowing I can't lose my Source. One tool can be quickly and easily replaced by another one. I believe it!

I know that money won't make me happy, but I do still want to try it out just to be sure!

Oprah Campaign!

Today I went to Oprah's website. I went to the very bottom of the page clicked on "contact us" and then clicked on "show suggestions." Here's what I wrote:

I would love to see Oprah interview Gary Renard author of The Disappearance of the Universe and Your Immortal Reality. In his books, Gary makes the fascinating and sensational claim that he was visited by two ascended masters who appeared on his living room couch. In his first book, Gary relates no less than the secrets of the Universe that his Friends shared with him during their 17 appearances over the Course of 9 years. I have never read anything truer or more fascinating. His Teachers offer a major clarification of another spiritual document called A Course in Miracles. Gary has a wonderful gift for delivering the Holy Spirit's message with humor and clarity, and there is no one I'd rather see on Oprah!